Jayden's new glasses

These are the Boise State blue glasses, don't they look good?

GO BSU!!!!

You've got to read this!!!

All I can say is WOW. Go over and read this post over at Especially Heather, it'll be well worth your time.

Only a teaspoon of seduction???

lisa - a scoop of beauty - a gallon of sexiness - a teaspoon of seduction Mix together and serve hot.

'What is your personality recipe?' at QuizGalaxy.com

What's your recipe??

How did it get there?

I'm pretty upfront with my kids, and they now know that the baby died and is with God. This is what my six year old had to say:

Skyler: How did the baby get to heaven and out of your tummy.

me: God took the baby up there with him (I wasn't about to explain the details to him)

Skyler: so there was this invisible thing that went out your back and up to Heaven?

me: well, kinda God just took the baby up to Heaven.

Skyler: so there is no baby in your tummy.

me: nope, the baby is with God.

Skyler: did it hurt?

me: no (I wanted to say yes)

Skyler: okay

and off he ran to go play wii. Sometimes seeing things through your childs' eyes makes things sooo much better. I wish it was as easy an 'invisible thing that went out my back and up to Heaven' but it isn't, unfortunately I will be going through this for a couple of weeks.

Much needed therapy

I've been shopping. What better therapy is there? I could go talk to someone and walk away with a clear head OR I could go shopping and walk away with a new pair of shoes, Christmas decorations, and a few Christmas gifts. Right now I feel better, that is until I have to balance the check book-that's when the talking to someone is going to need to take place. So for right now, it's all good.

It's a no go

I did my second HCG test today and the numbers went down. Which basically means I miscarried again. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. I am looking forward to the day that I will meet this sweet little one, once again.

your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalms 139:16

no more waiting and wondering

I am mostly writing this for myself. As I was sitting here with a really good friend tonight, I decided that I was tired of wondering what was going to happen. Was I going to carry this baby to term, would it be a miscarriage, what about a tubal? I've decided that I'm going to fully enjoy this pregnancy, regardless how long it is. As my Friend put it, do we decided to enjoy our kids when they "make it" or do we enjoy them everyday. I choose everyday, every hour, every second. However I am looking forward to tomorrow. I have my second HCG blood test, and that will most likely give a good indication how things are going. My counts should double every 48 hours. I went in on Tuesday to have the first HCG blood test done, I don't know what my count was on Tuesday. My doctor usually calls me, but I do expect to hear from him Thursday evening. I will most defiantly keep you up to date on what happens, but whatever happens I'm certainly enjoying the time I do have!!!!

Can you tell what I've been doing????

Matthew 6:34
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."

Luke 12:25
"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

This is what I've been doing the last few days.

Luke 7:7 "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened for you"

I've been doing alot of asking (praying) that I will not worry for I know that God has everything under control. He knows what is to be.

This is very hard for me. I'm a total control freak. I know I need to let God handle this and that is what I pray for, that God will guide me to hand all of my worries over to him.

YES!!!!!

Not one but two tests. Yes it is true, I'm pregnant. I'm five weeks and one day. I'm currently due on July 12th, which just happens to be Mark's birthday as well.

I go in to the doctor on Wednesday. I am a little apprehensive. Two years ago I had a ectopic pregnancy and in January of 2007 I had a miscarriage. So far everything is going fine. Please pray for me and my family. I will let you know more on Wednesday!