no more waiting and wondering

I am mostly writing this for myself. As I was sitting here with a really good friend tonight, I decided that I was tired of wondering what was going to happen. Was I going to carry this baby to term, would it be a miscarriage, what about a tubal? I've decided that I'm going to fully enjoy this pregnancy, regardless how long it is. As my Friend put it, do we decided to enjoy our kids when they "make it" or do we enjoy them everyday. I choose everyday, every hour, every second. However I am looking forward to tomorrow. I have my second HCG blood test, and that will most likely give a good indication how things are going. My counts should double every 48 hours. I went in on Tuesday to have the first HCG blood test done, I don't know what my count was on Tuesday. My doctor usually calls me, but I do expect to hear from him Thursday evening. I will most defiantly keep you up to date on what happens, but whatever happens I'm certainly enjoying the time I do have!!!!